.... for something more.
something more than old photo graphs of emotional teenagers and abondoned buildings. more than converses in the grass and a sunny sky. i search around deviantart, and it's different, but all the fucking same. deviants that get praised over and over and over. because their art is so... "amazing" and really, it's all just the same.

now, I'm not saying I'm some amazing artist.

I'm saying this is what I'm striving for. That this is what I want to become. Far from ordinary. Close to original.

i feel like starting over.

my life's been so... stupid lately.

it's like my whole personality's changed.

along with my artistic personality. my artistic ability.





ps. i have a darkroom.

OHMYFREAKINGJESUSCHRIST.

my life, has been so utterly amazingly crazy lately. no lie, joke, or exaggeration. and throughout this whole "transition" or whatever the heck i'm going through, my creativity has been blocked, deleted, or vaporized as accordingly.

it's painful

but, yeah. i'm definatly going to be updating "hopefully", this upcoming week. thiw whole weekend should be full of tampering, shooting projects, and artistic flair. i'm fasting all weekend, so god knows i need something to focus on.
hope everyone's doing better then me. xoxox.

due to lack of material, and digging up some of my dad's old work, I got an idea. polaroids. mmhm. and I know a lot of folks here on deviantart already came up with the idea, but I'm gonna try it. Just... well, you'll see I guess.

So, the past weekend I took a trip to -forestgumpvoice- our nation's cap-i-tol.
this would be washington dc by the way.
it was fantastic! a little bitterly cold, but fantastically awesome!
and what's better is I see JOHN MAYER in two days. So, be expecting some shots from that show. Because, I assure good friends, there will be.

anyway, pleace forgive the grainy-ness of these pictures. I noticed my camera wasn't on the highest film value possible.
also, it lacks flash, because you can hardly take pictures ANYWHERE in DC. I could of gotten in huge trouble for the pictures on the metro.
it's cause I might be a russian spy plotting to 'splode the president.

anyway. please please comment. and I hope you enjoy.

bytheway: andy warhol is now my fucking GOD. if you start seeing random pop inspired pictures, it's all for him.
xoxoxo. beckylou.